Breakdown


I’m physically,mentally and emotionally exhausted 

Everything is tiring to me, the weight on my shoulders makes it hard to see a bigger picture (if there’s any) 

I hate my life but dying is not an option 

There’s always one thing or the other to deal with, from one phase to another exist hurdle upon hurdles,

People expect so much from me and I feel like I’m stagnant even after several efforts put in place to move,

Help! I scream inside but act strong on the outside,

Drinking myself to sleep is the only way to relax, even music doesn’t heal anymore 

I’m tired (problem no dey finish)

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