PARANOID

 Paranoid

Something's wrong,I can feel it

Someone's watching me, I can feel their gaze upon me

Someone's following me, I can hear the footsteps behind me

Startled by the sound of the doorbell

Spend most time in the dark

Always too cautious of where I go, what I eat and who I talk to

Always wearing a sad face

Feeling low and unhappy even without a specific reason

Low self esteem

Worried about things yet to happen

Don't trust anyone

I smell blood and hear screams

Gun sounds blazing in my head I'm seeing things yet to happen

Everything I touch turns bad and food taste sour in my mouth

Water turns black and when I sit on the chair or bed I feel like I'm sinking right through it

I'm scared to look into the Mirror because I dont know who have become

Have lost weight yet I'm not hungry and have plenty to eat

It's like I'm allergic to everything and everywhere

I see them gather around to watch me break and fall

Scared to close my eyes because my dreams haunt me

I try to warn them but no one is listening to me, they think I'm crazy but I know what's coming, I can feel,smell and sense it

Hell....have seen it

I'm lost in the midst of multitudes

I try to speak up but no one hears,

No one sees what I see and most of all

No one believes

But who am I to be believed.....I'm just an ordinary "BLACK WOMAN"


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