NUMB

Numb

Void of all emotions/feelings

Have seen and felt it all in the deepest way possible,

I'm always at the extreme with my feelings, I find it hard to balance or control,

If I love....I love way too much,

If I'm sad......I'm say way too much,

If I'm happy....I'm way too hyper and happy,

And if I don't like you.....well you get the drill,

But lately I find myself empty, so light I can float in the air,

There's no emotion I haven't been through, I was so filled with feelings it exploded inside of me and now I'm left with nothing,

I'm just existing,

Nothing they do or say affects me in any way,

I'd rather not be happy than be happy just to be sad again,

It's like in a twinkle of an eye our emotion changes,

Even at the slightest sound or thing we see,

It keeps changing from good to bad and I can't just keep up,

Even when i think I'm happy, I still have it at the back of my mind that something can go wrong which means I'm not entirely happy.....

The rich also cry they say....But the poor weeps,

What happened to you people asked???

"LIFE" I replied, it hit me pretty bad.

Feelings are what makes us human, without it then what are we?


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